Just like I am

You sitting there in front of me, your eyes pricking in my eyes, talking about the most normal things, but still does it feel different with you. It is weird how we can have conversations about things that bother not either one of us. It doesn’t matter where we talk about if it is just us, together. How you look at me, your smile, your eyes and your weird faces. I feel safe with you. Continue reading “Just like I am”

Do you know?

Maybe, I like him more than I want to. I don’t want to fall in love with someone that doesn’t fall in love with me. But what can you do about it? I don’t even know whether he loves me or not. I shouldn’t make a fuss about it. Just relax and be myself. Stop fooling myself and just be honest. That touch of him and those twinkling eyes, do not mean anything special. Probably he looks to everyone like this. And what does it matter? I don’t even like him, mm? Continue reading “Do you know?”

Jealousy

Hi Sour Mats!

I’m a jealous person and I know that I’m. I don’t want to be jealous at all, because I think that it’s difficult to handle jealousy. When you’re really jealous, you don’t always allow other people to have fun. And I want the opposite, people do need to have pleasure in life. As a jealous person, I sometimes do forget that also the people that seems to have the perfect life, have difficulties in their ‘perfect life’. Continue reading “Jealousy”

‘Lieverd’ (‘darling’)

Hi M&M’s!

You did bad if I never called you a ‘lieverd’ or ‘schat’ (aka: darling and sweetie) in the past. I really loved to say that kind of things and I think it was a habit of me. My friends were used to it and didn’t even look suprised. My classmates were always a little bit suprised when I called them darlings. But that was just a matter of time. Yet, it is not like I feel at ease when boys call me like this. I can’t stop thinking about what he meant by saying it. Did he mean it? Or was it just a funny thing? Continue reading “‘Lieverd’ (‘darling’)”

Tea and soda

Hi Muffins!

I’m not a coffee drinker, you could call me a tea addict. To be honest, I have never drunk coffee, only the smell of coffee makes me feeling sick. So I never drink coffee and probably I will never do. I grew up with parents not drinking coffee and only one grandfather that drinks coffee. In my family neaby everyone is only drinking tea. And it is not like, that we drink just one glass of tea a day, no, we drink tea the whole day.  Continue reading “Tea and soda”

Creativity

Hi Lollies!

I discovered that I am writing a lot about just one person. Someone I don’t even know that good, but that person just takes a lot of space in my daily life, now I did got a new class. You’ll understand me by saying that when you got a lot of new people around you, you will hang out with the one you know. So that’s the reason. But really, there happens a lot more in my life. Don’t be afraid.  Continue reading “Creativity”

Two options in life

Hi Twixies!

A couple of days ago, I was going home with the train. Nothing weird, because it’s something I do every weekday. Everything went good, until the moment the train stopped, in the middle of a bridge. Water on the left side of the bridge, water on the right side and water below me. A technical problem with unknown duration. It took sometime, but after 15 minutes we continued our journey. Until the moment the train stopped again.  Continue reading “Two options in life”